I am on the verge of tears thinking about wright something.... I don't know why, I have been doing really well. I think it’s the thought of how honest to be with you. I was way more emotional for some time after my miscarriage. Now I’m just a little more emotional ones a mouth. I feel bad for my husband I finding myself apologizing for being crazy, but he better not call me crazy haha. I was and am amaze that I had to go throw the grieving process. Didn’t realize I would have to deal with grieving for a child I never knew. Anger..... Anger this was the hardest for me, it didn't last long but it’s who I was anger at that get me. I had anger towards others, the people I love and care about for getting me excited before I wanted to. I new a miscarriage was a possibility and wanted to wait to get excited. I was anger for talking about the baby, being a boy or girl, names, decor, and not for listening to the hesitation in my voice when talking about the baby. I still feel so bad about being angry towards the ones I love, I know they were excited for me, loved me and the baby.
Other then dealing with how I could be anger towards the one’s I love I have been doing really well now, it surprises me some times. I have my faith in God and my husband to thank for that. I do thinking about the baby some times and feel weird bring it up but my husband never acts like he doesn't want to talk or listen and I thank you for that.
I have some people in my life that are expecting but I am so excited for them. I can’t wait to meet the precious babies and watch them grow into beautiful people.